It's a Beautiful Monday

You know what? It actually did make me feel a lot better. Everything looks better in the light of day, too. Plus I had a good Monday, which is totally unheard of. I think that was because of a certain someone's prayers...or maybe many prayers that I'm not even aware of. But at least the one. I need to clean up and go to class. Everyone thank God for being so good and faithful. He'll never let you down, I promise. Well, HE promises. And you can count on that.


"Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;" Deuteronomy 7:8,9

And all the children said: A-MEN!

God bless,
-Matt

Rant? Wine?

I spent all weekend in my room, by myself, playing on the computer. I'm starting to hate the weekends just as much as I hate the weekdays. I am very lonely here. It's not that I don't have plenty of people to talk to, it's that I have no one to hang out with. It's crazy. And it's not that I need more time with God, or to read more Scripture about how He's always with me. I know that. I've read them. It's just that I've been like this for almost the entire time I've been in the Marine Corps, excluding when Audrey was out here. And even then sometimes I wished there were other people there I could hang out with. Where do I meet new people? Church? That is lonlier than staying in my room sometimes. I miss my friends. I miss my brothers. I hate this place. No, I don't hate California. I hate being alone. And I know that God is here with me. But God isn't pysically here hanging out with me. God does not verbally talk to me. God does not eat Panda Express or go to see movies or like to body boarding at Del Mar. So please, do not mention God to me. I love Him. He supports me. He is my strength. But I crave human companionship. *sigh* I'm not writing this down for pity's sake. I'm just putting it out there so I can look at how I'm feeling. Plus it pulls the gigantic weight off my heart. I don't know when I've been this miserable. But writing this has helped, actually. Because just like so many things in my life, I just have to fume about it and then accept it. *shrugs* Yeah. So there it is. I hope I feel better now.

God bless,
-Matt

Back

I'm back in California now. I've decided that I really don't like California. Not because anything California has done, mind you. Just because it's so unlike New York. And so far away from my friends and family. That is no good. It makes me sad. And then I sit around in my room all the time, or drive around and waste gas. Either way, it's not a good time. *sigh*

Did you ever wish you could hibernate?

"Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee." Deuteronomy 31:6

I'm not afraid...I'm just lonely.

God bless,
-Matt

P.S. I had an awesome time at home. Thanks to everyone who made it so great: Mom, Jacob, Josh, Todd, Dad, Cheryl, Sarah, Dave, Chris, and of course Natalie. I can't wait to see you all again.