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So I have a lot of homework to do. But I don't do it. Why, you ask? Because I'm a procrastinator. I have a billion other things I'd rather be doing. But I'm getting better. Tonight I did my laundry at around 8:30 as opposed to starting it at 11:30. That's a huge improvement. That means I'll be able to get to bed sooner. Yeah, right. Oh, I folded it, too. Mom would be proud.

There are too many nice friends and family members I have that like to talk to me on the phone. I'd rather do that than homework any day. Plus, I have a figgity-fantastic computer with a large number of games that I have yet to beat installed on it. They are crying out for me to conquer them! And on top of that, I have an entire army of Space Marines that wants to be fully painted, not just sprayed completely blue or in the un-primed gray! Gah! They're so needy!

I wish I could stop myself and get more stuff done that mattered. It's so hard to sometimes. And no, I'm not asking for advice, or help. I'm just saying it out loud. Because I already know what I'm supposed to do and even how I'm supposed to do it. I'm 23 now, I can take care of myself. I can be responsible. It's just a matter of doing it and sometimes that motivation is hard to find. So that the real thing I need to figure out: what's my motivation?

I obviously can't just do it for myself. Frankly, I could care less if I got stuff done. I mean, the future me cares a lot about getting stuff done, but not the present me so much. *shrugs* I'm glad I don't own a time machine, I'd be beating the crap out of myself on a regular basis. So, yeah.

I love God so much. He always is there. Always. Always taking care of me, always giving me strength and good council...He's awesome. I wish I had gotten up for church this morning. I need a man to come in with a knife and threaten to kill me...that'd get me up. Or like a big bag of money that fell from an airplane and is spilling bills all over the parking lot. Church is one of those things that is hard for me to get up the motivation to go but once I do I ALWAYS enjoy myself, and I'm always glad that I did it. Like the gym. Thank God I have enforced PT.

Anyway...thanks for putting up with my laziness, everyone. I'm sorry for it, but I appreciate you dealing with it because I'm sure you've all had to at one time or another. I'm trying to get better. I will. Now I have to go, I'm sleepy, my shoulder hurts like a mo fo, and I wish that I had a cuddling buddy.

"Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him." James 1:12
"He that endureth to the end shall be saved." Matthew 10:22

If the Green Belt Instructor Course has taught me one thing, it is how to persevere. With God's strength, I can stick it through anything. Keep on truckin'.

God Bless you all,

-Matt